Wondering where I've been.

I changed the name of this blog to mirror the changes in my head. "Kaddish" is a Jewish prayer recited after the burial of a loved one. It's really, much harder than I anticipated, to explain. But I guess it's a sort of tribute to my disillusionment. I feel the dignity, the terror, the serenity of loss and bereavement, and I must lament. Kaddish is the eternal appeal , It is the river of light, the stream of idealism, the lament for the transended. It is a rememberance and reverance shown for an absent state of being. One part of my life, has transcended. It is gone, dead and fortifeid. I will remember it, and say a prayer to let go of it. This is my means of moving on, just as the Kaddish is meant as a closing of a book, a letting go of something that was loved.